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Good Enough

Tired of being left in the dark
All alone with this tainted heart
That bleeds colors no one will ever see.

Will I ever know the person that is me?
That hides beneath all of this madness.
Just waiting for the right moment to come out
When no one is looking too closely.
But they are always looking too closely.

Everything seems so far away sometimes.
Because nothing seems real when you’re on your own
In a world that lets you down time and time again.

Shattering every hope and every dream.
It’s always changing, and always screaming
That you are just not good enough.
Never good enough to finally be free.

 

Written by : Violet

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Nothing More To Give

They walk on eggshells around me
So they don’t disturb my weak heart
That jumps at the slightest sign of danger.

I know that I’m a burden
Even though they constantly reassure me.
I know I take up too much space
And I’m only seen as a pretty face.

Just admit you don’t want me around
And I’ll learn to never make a sound
So we don’t keep wasting time here
Pretending that there’s something more I can give.

Taking The Blame

It’s always my fault
When she’s in a rage
I must be the one
To take the blame
Or else she will crumble
And do it again
Just a child
With no way to defend
Against the monster
Where there’s no way to win

One day I hope
To get away
But for now I must suffer
And soak up the pain
The days pass by
And I still wonder why
My own mother
Would want me to die