Tag Archives: depression

Good Enough

Tired of being left in the dark
All alone with this tainted heart
That bleeds colors no one will ever see.

Will I ever know the person that is me?
That hides beneath all of this madness.
Just waiting for the right moment to come out
When no one is looking too closely.
But they are always looking too closely.

Everything seems so far away sometimes.
Because nothing seems real when you’re on your own
In a world that lets you down time and time again.

Shattering every hope and every dream.
It’s always changing, and always screaming
That you are just not good enough.
Never good enough to finally be free.

 

Written by : Violet

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Wasted Space

Time will only tell
If I come out of this alive.
Would anyone care if I died?
No one knows..
No one knows..

I’m never enough
But always too much.

Didn’t you hear I like it rough?
So bring on the destruction.
Make it so I no longer function
In a world that never wanted me anyways.
Might as well let me go and let it be.

I’ll be the face that’s never seen
And the voice that’s never heard.
Already given up on my dream.
You’ve pushed me so far away from me.

I’m Just Fine

Why can’t I stop before it’s too late?
I’m always going well beyond my limits.
Stomach feels like it’s bleeding through.
But I see nothing.
I feel nothing
But an invisible pain.

I cry cry cry
But no one knows the struggle inside.
I fall apart
But no one ever sees it for what it really is.

Alone in my own world
Even when I try to let everyone in.
It just doesn’t work that way.
Sometimes I think I’ve made a big mistake.

Until I hear that I’m an inspiration
And then my eyes light up.
Feeling like I’m on fucking fire
Yet I’m burning in the flames of my own life.
Just trying to get by
Just trying to see the light
But it always seems to be passing by
As I look up to the sky
Wondering why?
Why? Why? Why?

One day I’ll fly
But until then I’ll cry
Just waiting and wishing
To mean it when I say I’m just fine.

Written by : Violet

Light In The Dark

They said it wasn’t real
But couldn’t even feel
The struggle that was faced
And hidden away
Even from myself.

Delusional in the mind
Because I went far away
Into a place inside myself
Where I could feel safe.

Only seeing my faults
They never saw the truth
Forcing me to play pretend.

In my own personal hell
The demons took control.
I was so lost in the noise
Feeding my addictions
And sleeping around.
No love to be found.

Taking away my dignity
Gagged and bound
And fucked all around.

Fucked in my head.
Fucked in my bed.
Fucked in my heart.
Fucked from the start.

Trying to regain control
But only making it worse.
Helping them push me under.
Completely unaware
Of the consequences
And the pain it would cause.

I pushed myself over the edge
Because I refused to recognize
The damage that had been done.

Escaping it all once again.
Believing I could finally move on.
Carrying a heavy burden
That constantly weighed me down
While losing myself in the process.

I just sort of faded in and out.

Falling away from the moment.
Keeping me away from my dreams
And everything I thought I could be.

Now that I’m finally free
I can see a light inside.

My soul on fire
Feeling the passion
Run right through me.

No longer wanting to hide.
Coming out into the open
And letting go.

Finally in control.
The world now sees me
For who I really am
Whether they want to
Accept it or not.

Fighting the resistance
I won’t back down.
Even if they tell me
Not to make a sound
I can’t stay silent now.

 

Written by : Ruby