Tag Archives: torture

Denial

Trying To See My Worth
But Every Time I Do It Hurts
I’m Not Supposed To Feel
I’m Not Supposed To Be Real

They Will Torture Me Again
If I Don’t Do What I’m Told
I Better Hide My Smile
Make Sure I Stay In Denial

It’s The Only Way To Survive
In A World Built To Destroy Me
No Use In Putting Up A Fight
Even If It Doesn’t Seem Right

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Break Me Down Slowly

I can’t ever be still
Even when I lay here
Like a stone

Always on guard
Knowing you will destroy me
Even if I don’t move a muscle

There’s never any peace
When I’m feeling so weak

It breaks me down slowly
Until I’m left with nothing
But the voices in my head

They bring me to my knees
Making it so I’m afraid to feel

No use in fighting back
When I’m trapped
In a world where I don’t belong

So I’m just living to die
Going out of my mind
Asking the reasons why

But then there’s just silence

Leaving Her Behind

Stripped
To The Bone
I Can’t See
Anything
Except For
This White Wall

I Don’t Know
What’s Coming
But I Know
It Can’t
Be Good

He Doesn’t
Make A Sound
So I’m On The Edge
Waiting
For The Next Attack

He Comes Up
Behind Me
And My Heart
Drops

I Run Away
From Myself
And Let Her
Take The Fall

He Loves
To Make
Me Watch
So I’ll Feel Guilt
For Something
That Isn’t
My Fault

It Doesn’t Matter
If He’s The One
To Blame
Because
I’ll Always Feel
Ashamed
For Leaving
Her Behind

She’s A Fighter
Unlike Me

At Least
That’s What I Tell
Myself
Because The Truth
Hurts
When You’ve Been Tortured
Into Believing
A Lie